Isis' Journal

[da monkey]

9.09.05



These past days since arriving in KC have been both torrential and wonderful all at the same time. I met Jason Daniels just shortly after my arrival and he has taken me in and in most senses made me a part of the pack he runs. He is after all the Ulfric of said pack so I suppose it would only be natural that he welcomed me in. Or perhaps he sees something in me that I have yet to even see myself, who knows only time will tell. My first shifting will take place in less than nine days and though I am less fearful about it knowing that Jason and at least most others of the pack will be there when it happens, I can not help but to be scared from time to time with all these changes taking place. I miss my old home yet I am very glad to be here a strange contradiction at times to miss something but no longer want it. I have really no urge to return to Ireland despite the fact that my human family has lived there for centuries our history is rich there spanning back nearly nine hundred years. Overall despite a few glitches I am happy here and will be staying. I will remain with Jason most likely through my training and I feel safe. Things I certainly haven't felt in quite some time.

[da monkey]

9.14.05


I spent the day getting to know my way around the neighborhood on my own. Going so far as to check into a few possible job opportunites nothing of which that will be decided upon until after my first shifting has taken place. Afterward I came home and talked with Jason for a little while which I must admit when it was all over, I was left terribly confused. He spoke of a few new rules that he had to set down for the pack which I am not against it's his home and I do know that he must keep the peace between him and his wife. I'm just confused on the whole seeing "a body" as being only flesh and bone and nothing more, that it isn't to be looked upon or appreciated. I've always thought that the human body was something beautiful (well despite some rarities that just aren't -laughs-). That there was no shame in looking and being attracted to someone. I don't know maybe I was wrong for thinking that. I really haven't "been" with all that many men perhaps only 3 and only two of those relationships had even a tinge of sexual nature to them. I suppose in time it'll all become clear what the meaning behind everything was.